How fast is slow?...

 Raise your voice

In repeating patterns

Of plans, life plans

Of to do's and news

How fast is slow?

Is this is the right time to go?

How will I know-

That I can

Until I do

And then you will look at me

Thinking you were right

But I refuse to let that fight ignite

It's been a long time

You don't know me at all

Yes, that was nice.

Great letter.

Good pictures.

All is well.

You just have to let go. 

If I accept the way that it be

Does that mean you have lost knowing me?

You don't listen to my running complaints

Remember when that was romantic?

To know what lurked within me

All the days that you cannot bare

It's when I begin to stare

I have to go.

Today is too much

Monotony on repeat

I move too slow

I am tired

For awhile

But it will get done

I can do it.

I always pretend for you.

I feel the need to.

But I don't have to be happy. 

My stomach shakes

Making plans

Of attack

Remember when you can just be you?

I only want to listen to me

And pursue what learning I have to do

Someday smile

We walked for awhile

I think of you, but I can't call

And it's not who you think you are

Stop this guessing game

I'm sorry for the story

It's been awhile

Since I've seen you smile

I gamble my way

And it works

Up to this day

Gamble away my time

In a year or two

Things have taken me back

Nothing wasted all together planned

Reaching to old times

It's been a long time

Life will listen

It does even when I cover my ears

How fast is slow?

We will never know.