Hey...

This is to you, and by you
I mean you.

I decided to write to you today.

And partly to say, hey.
But mostly to prove my love-

Which is silly
Because words prove very little.

It is not in these letters but in your eyes

where I know what to say.

And for that I can only sparkle back.
And in harmony.
We say yes.

 

One Day...

Some of my photos from New Orleans, LA

 

New Feelings...

(Louis Porter)

Moving shadows

Following behind me

Walk away

Choose honesty

See this dance

Bow with me

I can just be this way with you and I don't know you

I can just be this way all the time

I can just be

With myself

Wander with space

I watch

in trance

Steps of neon

She makes me sad, you don't have to choose this

You can choose this

Do you like this?

Seductive lights

Do they make you cry?

What does your smile say?

I can see you

I can see myself

And I will let it

Move freely

Lingering on...

(Louis Porter)

Is it true what they say about prayer flags?

Your wishes come true as they fade away?

Broken torn and worn thin threads

Prayers reveal as the wind treads

 ...

This time it was my fault.

I reached out

Knowing it was me

And not you

Hoping to grasp but afraid of your return

Then ignoring you like a ghost that refuses to go

And looking up to him

Marching my way

I want to run 

And you sir there in the cornor

Lying lies and secret eyes

You make no sense

I can't see

And you don't want to

But... still... 

I feel sad knowing that it's just about feeling sad

No holding onto hope

It can't be you

I wish it was you in the cornor

But deep down I don't want to play

You

I only know what I know...

 

 

Winter Solace is calling my name

Into clear clean white

Laced up

I only know what I know

I don't know your way

Or why

Or for any reason that there is a reason

This random game of chance

We built this world into pieces

And so it is time to retreat

Into the deep bright unknown

Buried layers where I find

Inside

Rest

In the mind

Coldness

Burning

This time it will heal

This time I will feel

This time I will let go

This time I will be safe

This time I need not fear

Being alone

I have my window

I see a view

Tiny lights of people

All inside

Looking out back at me 

Girl in Port...

 

Let fall your soft and swaying skirt
Let fall your shoes
Let fall your shirt

Then later on she walked around
The winding streets
She don't know who she wants to be
And if I knew, I'd tell-

And she tells me she's had fun
Up in her place the records spin
Needle in the grooves that she's worn thin

She lives asleep and she sees her name
And she's got a smile on her face
She's got a story you can't see

I cut fresh new pieces from myself
And for a second something in me
Said leave today it's time

But I'm not sailing just for sport
I've come to feel out on the sea
These urgent lies pressed against me
I'm just a guest, I'm not apart
My tender head
My easy heart

These several years out on the sea
Have made me empty cold and clear
Pour yourself into me

(Carolyn Victoria)

 Listen to the silent ring of the bell--

--whispers of wind

Inside looking out

Teach me to see...

I learn how to hold the photograph

See through the lens and make something clear

Something beautiful-

Only known with these eyes

And then shared

Look this way

into you

do you feel my smile?

I run for miles

But only in your direction

Following slowly behind

Always keeping pace

And held

You won't let me fall

I hear the call

calling me

Wake me up-

-when you are home

What is home anyhow?

Where do you find home anyway?

This road fills me-

The curves of its movements move my feet

in the right direction

even when it's the wrong way

Riding with you

there is nothing to do

only look

Outward and ahead staring at fields

Watch waves of hills pass

Burned barns and grass

Smells of smoke and fires toke

Lifted to the sound

of silence

Rustling leaves and necking scarfs

Fall-ing into the wrapped

feeling of warmth

with natural ease

I don't want to end this story

Let us ride these waves forever

Swim into the neon of light

and move with the beach

Breathing in and out

With you

Still and all that is

True

This is happening-

Reflecting out

Landscape of color

Bleeding across and blending

Fading and falling subtly

You change so clearly

I didn't even notice

You at my side

Breaking into the ocean

Deep

Save your breath

Hold my hand and hold the sky

Our hearts beat these colors together

Cast me away

Into still

Sinking stone washed over

I give in

I give in

I give into this weight

Sing me to sleep

You hold the wand...

(Louis Porter)

I am strength

ready to explode this load

Creativity flows from these veins

to the sun rays

You all just wait on this wand

to wave 

I am here to grow into an erupting

Explosion

Navigating this energetic word flow

I can't move slow

I can do it all

with my vision

I see magic where you let go

For me color is all that will be

My wings take flight under water

Navigating this plan just following myself

I exist where everything flies

Where what you see is such a small part of it

All

I exist in the story

In the in betweens of words

I exit in the dreams

In the tress

with the fairies

Me and my friends play all day

Dance me...

You and I both...

...see through me

(click boots)

Layers

Under layers

of layers

From here to there

From this to the next

The layers where you and I rest

I find the best

Where I see you

in the nude

Bare and boned

Lace without a trace

Layers of sheer

I am near

I hold you dear

But today I choose to cheer

Wake up and look

in between

Dive into looking out and through

These layers wear

me down

I'm done with

You

I'm sick of this trail

 

Layers build

But I see see-through

And it's still

me and you

 

 But it's just a feeling

Nothing I can believe in

I see

through

these layers too

Radical...

Call me if you need a boost

Call me if you need a fix

Fix this

(Louis Porter)

 Just want to feel

bad

So I can let this go

I'm sick of being sick

I just want to say

Fuck You

I'm free and nasty

I'm fine being flashy

I need to get out of this kind map

I'm saying I'm over it

I'm bitter and need to step

Out

Ego-Centric...

My ego gets the best of me.
Like you, and even her too.
This mind may be locked in
     Jealously
It spills and overflows
I have to hide to keep this tide
          Moving
I have to remind
to be kind

Because this tired mind doesn't want to try
But why? She too can cry...
And I shouldn't want to know her hurt
Because I do thinking of you

And I want to be held
By those arms I know so well
Pretending it is just me
And that I am your key

But love is locked
And the boat seems docked
Ready to sail?
Who knows we may prevail

One day we will see what was meant to be.
Think of me
because I promise I'll always remember thee